who knew?

It's been 2 weeks since the hubby went back to work. I have to say it's been a bit hard. I am trying to get into a routine, but some days my routine is to sleep when the baby does!! although it's not easy knowing my house is a mess and all I want to do is sleep. I hate clutter and chaos. It messes with my head.  As soon as my counters, floors and everything else are clutter free, I feel soooo much better.  I clean when I can, and sleep when needed. Who knew you could survive on a few hours of sleep?


I have no sense of time most days. My little man eats and sleeps on his own schedule and I am just a slave to it. I see the sun rise and set, and don't realize it most days   Some days I forget to eat and go rummaging through the pantry until  the stomach stops growling in a ferocious way . Maybe that will help me lose the baby weight. giggle giggle.   Who knew you could survive on little food.

The little slave master has stolen my heart, even when he stays awake all night and doesn't sleep until 3am. His sweet face, smiles and sweet disposition make up for the lack of sleep I get. He makes my heart melt, even when he cries and wants to eat every few hours.  Who knew my world could change as much as it has??

Hubby help

The past three weeks have been a blur of diapers, feedings, little sleep and a beautiful little boy.  I have had doubts that I wouldn't be able to handle everything that has come with being a new mommy.
For the most part, I have handled everything, including many diaper geysers, spit ups and little to no sleep (that's fun)

 I was spoiled for 3 weeks with the hubby being home with me. He would be at mine and the baby's beck and call or cry.  It was nice having him be home all day, I could sleep a bit while he watched and took care of the baby.  He would do laundry, clean the house and make me dinner and not say anything about me being in sweats all day, my hair all disheveled or the spit up on my shirt.   He went back to work this week and I am struggling with it.  I have to go back to the real world, I have to make dinner for him and the step-kids. Do my laundry as well as the baby's.  clean the house...ok tidy up the house and wear real clothes not just sweats....unless it's a really bad day.

I just wish I would win the Publishers Clearing house millions and have the hubby home all the time.....I think.  Maybe we would get on each others nerves too much And want to kidney punch each other!! hahahahaha

I love you babe!  I won't kidney punch you....unless my hormones go haywire and you piss me off! :)

grandma and a miracle

 I took my little man to meet his great grandma for the first time. There is almost a 90 year difference between them. (my grandma will turn 90 in July)  For me I had hoped and dreamed that this day would come. I wanted my son to meet a huge important person in my life.   I know he won't get to see how sweet she is and what a great influence she has been to me.  It makes me sad that he won't get to know her.

She's not ill or sick and i'm hoping she lives forever, but I also know he won't have her amazing influence as he grows up, like I did.  I just hope he understands that she has been a rock to so many people and a huge blessing to all of her grandchildren.


When I was almost 4 months pregnant, the hubby and I went to tell my grandma we were expecting.  We chatted for a bit and then I said, We have something to tell you! and she looked at me and said...You're going to have a baby!  she knew before I even told her!  Maybe it was divine intervention, or she just could sense it?? who knows.   All I know is that I was sooo excited to share the news and even more excited for her to meet her latest great-grandchild.  

miracles happen

My little miracle arrived last night after 25 hours in labor and 5 of those not progressing past 7cm.   SOOOOOO a C-section happened! ouch!!   He is Beautiful! amazing and adorable!  Momma is exhausted, medicated and happy he is here!  


He weighed 6 lbs 5 oz and 18.5 inches long!

recipes

These all came from various facebook posts!




BROWNIE REFRIGERATOR CAKE

Ingredients:
1 box brownie mix
1 extra large egg
1 (8 oz.) package cream cheese, softened
1 cup powdered sugar
2 (8 oz.) containers whipped topping
1 (3 oz.) package instant chocolate pudding
1 (3 oz.) package instant vanilla pudding
3 1/2 cups milk
1 Hershey candy bar or chocolate syrup

Directions: Mix brownie mixes according to directions. Add egg. Bake in brownie pan. Mix cream cheese, powdered sugar and 1 container whipped topping. Put this mix on top of the cooled brownies. Blend puddings and milk together and put on top of the cream cheese mixture. Top with another layer of whipped topping. Put chocolate shavings or chocolate syrup on top. Refrigerate until ready to serve.




Eggless Cookie Dough 

Egg-less cookie dough to eat. Not to bake. Just to eat. Every woman should have this recipe on hand... perfect for girls night in
3/4 cup brown sugar
1/4 cup butter, softened 
1/4 tsp. vanilla 
1/4 cup milk 
1 cup flour 
Pinch salt 
1/2 cup chocolate chips

Dr. Pepper Cake

Ingredients

1 box yellow cake mix
1 box instant vanilla pudding
4 eggs
3/4 cup oil
1 10 oz. can of Dr. pepper
3/4 cups walnuts (Chopped)
Glaze: 1 cup powdered sugar and 1 tsp vanilla and enough Dr. pepper to make a thin glaze.
How to make it

Turn oven to 350 degrees.
Grease a bundt pan.
Mix all ingredients together and pour into bundt pan.
Bake for one hour.
After cake cools , pour glaze over the top. Cut and serve.


Two Ingredient Lemon Bars......

2 Ingredient Lemon Bars
Oh yeah you read that right only Two simple ingredients to make these melt in your mouth ( middle of the pie) lemon squares!
Yep this is like you cut your self a slice right out of themiddle of the pie!
This is all you need:
1 box angel food cake mix( I use Betty Crocker)
2 cans lemon pie filling

I used two 21 oz cans of Comstock pie filling ( total of 42 oz)
Mix dry cake mix and cans of pie filling together in large bowl.
I just mixed it by hand...
Pour into greased 9 x 13″ baking pan.
Bake at 350 degrees for 25 minutes or until top is starting to brown.
NOTE...Mine took the full 25 minutes to get done and did not brown on top at all :))
Cool on wire rack and sprinkle with powered sugar. It has a melt in your mouth spongy texture.

Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday Babe!

life changing

I've had time to reflect on life the last few weeks waiting for my little miracle to come.  My life is going to change and it scares me a bit.  I will be one of the sole responsible people caring for a tiny human being.   I will be the one who makes sure he is fed, changed, makes sure he is warm enough, happy, healthy and a whole bunch of other things.  It scares me a lot.  I've only dreamt of what it would be like and in a few weeks it's going to be a reality.

I have noticed that the world has become crazy and I'm so scared I won't be able to prepare my little man enough to stand out in the world and make a difference. Not that he has to make a difference. I just want him to be strong, have good morals and be the best kid he can be. Is that to much to ask??

Maybe it's just all my hormones and emotions running high. Maybe it's my fear of not being a good enough mom.  Maybe it's just me freaking out that I will have a baby in my arms in a few weeks.

My life is going to change whether i'm prepared or not.  I just hope the world is ready to change as well!!